As Christian’s, there is something we have to do that is incredibly hard to do.
We have to be okay with not understanding everything.
I’ve talked with so many people, in just the past week, who are walking through incredibly hard things, or dealing with situations that just make no earthly sense.
Something devastating has happened that they don’t understand. Or, something good, something they’ve begged God for, has STILL not happened.
I’m convinced, as much as we long to, we won’t fully understand why things happen and don’t happen, this side of Heaven; but we still have to trust God and not lean on our own understanding. (Prov 3:5-6).
And this is what faith asks of us.
We don’t understand, but we trust God.
Then when we don’t understand again, we trust God again.
We keep walking towards God in these moments.
And it’s okay, and healthy, to talk to others (godly friends, biblical counselors, pastors etc) who can help us keep trusting God and keep walking toward Him.
What’s not okay, when our faith is rocked by things we do not like, or do not understand, is to give into the temptation to pull away from God and from others who can point us to truth.
Friend, we are all in a battle. It’s real. The most faithful among us sometimes feel faithless!
Hard things feel hard. They hurt. God built you with emotions and sometimes they feel like they are going to explode. Other times, you may have hurt so long, and so deeply, you go numb.
Friend, even in this, even when when we feel faithless, God is still faithful. He can’t deny Himself. (2 Tim 2:13)
You may not feel faith-filled right now in your difficult season, but God has not changed. He is still hope, help and comfort. Where else would you go?
Oh friend, all other ground is sinking sand.
Will the answers come this side of Heaven? Will we understand? I don’t know.
But, remember what you do know. Surround yourself with others who will remind you of truth.
May we be like Peter, when the Lord asked him if he would turn away. (Jesus had been teaching many hard things and many had turned back and stopped following Him). But Peter said, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life, and we have believed, and have come to know, that you are the Holy One of God”.(John 6:68-69).
Friend, God loves you. He is near. He is at work. The hard roads won’t always be this hard. And one day, our faith will become sight. One day, as Tolkien alludes, “every sad thing will become untrue”.
Hold on and remember the words of another of my favorites, “Some mortals say of some temporal suffering, “No future bliss can make up for it,” not knowing that Heaven, once attained, will work backwards and turn even that agony into a glory.”
—C. S. Lewis, The Great Divorce, chapter 9.
Yes, “Heaven, once attained, will work backwards and turn even that agony into a glory.”