I burst into tears at the sight of my daughter’s messy room. Clothes were everywhere as she had been packing for her honeymoon.
I realized she would soon clean up her room for the last time. And the tears about choked me.
I thought back to a few years ago, when one of my boys had left for college.
As I lay in bed, that particular night, I began telling God how I felt: “I am not ready for my kids to be so grown-up and on their own. I even miss the chaos of little muddy feet and balls being thrown in my house. I miss holding them.”
And now, I know, I’m going to miss asking them to clean their rooms!
I know God has been faithful in the past, but can He help me with this sadness and this new host of emotions?
But God isn’t just the God of “He did” or “He is”. He is also the God of “He will” and “He can”.
Right now, I’m a mess of emotions. He hasn’t taken away the emotions. He hasn’t shown me how we will walk together in joy in this new phase of life, but He assured me He is already there, that He is enough for my sad momma heart and that He will help me rest.
He says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest”. Matt 11:28
But what does “coming to Jesus” look like to get that rest?
It means, remembering His truth (that you study daily in His Word so you know it) and then acting on it!
In Psalm 13:2, David writes: “How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemies triumph over me?”
How long? Well, as long as we walk in our own emotions, go our own way, and fail to remember truth. That’s how long.
When David wrote Psalm 13, his enemies were encamped around him. He was depressed and afraid, and in his mind he wrestled with his fears. Only after telling God of his worries, and remembering truth, did his emotions shift. (Go read the Psalm)
David ended the Psalm by saying,
“But I trust in your unfailing love, and my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord for he has been good to me”(Psalm 13:5-6).
Yes, my daughter has grown up and is leaving me to get married Saturday and to move into her own house with her sweet husband soon. (Can you believe it?)
That man loves Jesus and he loves my girl. Honestly, he’s a wonderful man. He’s wise beyond his years and so very good with my daughter.
You know, the Lord has been good to me!
I will keep singing His praises! How could I not when I really think of it?
And the truth is, God has already done MORE than enough for me (and you) when He sent His Son into the world to walk in our darkness, to feel our emotions, to deal with our temptations- and yet never sin.
God sent His Son! He didn’t hold His only child back! He didn’t just deal with Him moving out! No! God gave His only Son to die so that we might live!
A God who would do that for us is not going to leave us!
No, He will carry us through every problem and every emotion we will ever face! He will carry us all the way home! And He will even give us joy along the way!
What a Savior! The Christ of Christmas! Now, I gotta go get ready for this Christmas wedding!!!
(Will you please pray for all to stay well and for the Lord to be glorified at the wedding? Thank you!)
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What a beautiful post. I believe only we mothers can truly feel and understand your emotions of the empty nest syndrome. But as you well said, God is still there to fill up that void. Congratulations on your new son.😊👣