If you know me, you know I typically don’t approach Scripture by the “flop it open and read method”. I like to read in order, context, etc.
But this morning, I lay in bed in the dark praying, “God, please just let me keep hearing from You”.
I saw the heart failure and transplant specialist from Vanderbilt yesterday. The news we got was not what we had hoped.
Basically, I have two independent problems with my heart that are both impacting how well it pumps. They can address one with meds and perhaps an implantable cardiac device and defibrillator. They can do nothing to improve the other, and if it progresses, I could possibly face a heart transplant.
I’m processing it all. I’m concerned about my husband, my kids, my parents- I’m supposed to be taking care of them. My mind is racing with all sorts of thoughts.
But as I lay in the bed this morning, I kept praying for God to please just let me hear His voice. I need that more than anything.
I flopped open my Bible, prepared to head to Philippians, and I glanced down to see the words of Psalm 41:3 underlined already.
“The LORD will strengthen him on his bed of illness.”
I don’t recall underlining those words or even reading them before.
He makes His presence known. He will strengthen me. He will keep His promises. He will take care of my family. He loves them more than me.
I only need to trust and obey.
One day at a time.
That has not changed.
I so appreciate your continued prayers. I’m so thankful for all of you who have been encouraging me. I felt your prayers as we sat in the doctors office yesterday. Thank you.
Will you please pray for me to steward this season well, to continue to hear from the Lord, and to write only as He would have me?
Would you also pray, as several of you have asked, for me to figure out how to get my past posts and studies of different books of the Bible off Facebook and compile into a book or a few books? I kind of feel an urgency to do that now.
Will you pray for my family? Will you pray for the Lord to guard our hearts and minds in Him and for this to serve only to draw us all closer to Jesus?
Oh friend, what would we do without our Savior!! I’m so thankful I gave my heart to Him a long time ago. He is so very faithful. He is trustworthy. He always will be.
Thank you so very much.