My quiet time hasn’t been so good…

Can I be honest? My quiet time hasn’t been so quiet lately. I’ve felt distracted. Worried. Hurried.

I’ve noticed my soul needs refreshing. Again.

(Yes, this has happened more than once, and yes, I think it happens to many of us who love Jesus)

Anyways, when this “dry spell” happened before, I bought myself a journaling Bible…it was clean and crisp with lined pages for notes.

But, at first the new Bible felt awkward in my hands. Brand new. Nothing yet underlined, highlighted, starred or stained by my tears.

It didn’t just naturally flop open to my favorite parts.

Now don’t get me wrong, I cherish my well-worn, marked-up Bible (like, I’d run back in my burning house to grab it kind of cherish)…but I had started to notice my eyes fell too quickly on the underlined verses and the notes from the past.

And I suspected God has so much more to say than just what I had heard Him say before.

So, I picked up the brand new Bible.

Because I want to hear Him.

I know my heart needs, once again, to slow down and listen and savor.

I need to pause and just delight. I need to read without a plan.

Now, I still LOVE reading plans and formal Bible studies to keep me accountable and on track. I love learning with others. God has taught me so much this way!

But I also know I’m only a little bit “Mary” but a whole lot “Martha”.

And, if I’m not careful, I’ll race through a study to get the right answer, check off a box, and completely miss the delight and worship that comes from drawing near the Savior through His Word.

Just me and Him.
Without a plan.
Is the plan.
For this summer.

And, as I ask God to speak over each new page, I am cherishing Him in new ways.

I notice verses and truths afresh and anew; and I have truly delighted in worship of Him. Again.

Some days, I have only made it through one verse…ONLY ONE VERSE…. before my heart almost bursts in awe of our Lord.

Other days, I have read and read as the Holy Spirit comforted and encouraged me.

I believe I’ve heard His voice telling me to keep going in ministry…because, to be real, there’s been some days I’ve wanted to quit.

And this I’m slowly learning, and will add as a caution to some of you… if we aren’t careful, those of us who serve Him, who teach others, who speak and share, those who can naturally be so task-oriented, sometimes fail to let our hearts have time to simply delight in Him.

And that’s dangerous.

Sometimes, we get so busy trying to prepare for others we miss the delight of God for ourselves—we miss the awe and the wonder!

Friend, I’m convinced we can complete the lesson, write the devotional, and fail to draw near the Teacher!

Oh friends, but our hearts forever need to draw near and be in awe!

We were made to worship the God of the Bible— not our Bibles!

This God we serve is amazing! He cannot be defined or contained! His love for us is more glorious than my pen could ever describe.

And I don’t want to ever think I know Him so well that I take one passage for granted.

I don’t ever want to become so familiar with my Bible that I cease to delight in His unending goodness in every word He speaks and everything He does!

I want to worship Him like John does as he ends his gospel….He’s just told of the greatest true story ever told, but John knows there is so much more!!

“Now there are many other things that Jesus did. Were every one of them to be written, I suppose that’s the world itself could not contain the books that would be written. “ (John 21:25).

Oh Glory! Glory for the things God has done and said that can never, ever be contained!

But also GLORY for the things He will do and say as we seek Him afresh, as we savor each word anew, as we allow our hearts to never, ever take Him or His Word for granted!

What a Savior!!!

2 thoughts on “My quiet time hasn’t been so good…

  1. Kim,

    I’ve been sensing the same thing you wrote about in today’s email.

    I wonder, if you have found you are really enjoying your new(ish) journaling Bible, would you send the link to me? I’ve been searching, but I’m overwhelmed with the choices and would love an honest “review” from someone I trust! Do you personally prefer red-letter editions? The Bible I currently use doesn’t have that feature, and I miss it!

    God bless you, Sis! Laurie



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