I asked my daughter to share this. I think it is important to realize we all go through times like this in our faith but we don’t have to stay there—
Numb. I’ve felt that way a lot lately. I’ve been a Christian for about 14 years now and I’ve been reading my Bible most of that time.
I often go with mom and share and speak about how important it is to have time in God’s Word. To sit in His Presence.
Yet, for quite a while now, I’ve felt incredibly numb to the things of Christ.
I love Him. I know I need Him. I want to want Him…yet, I have felt so very numb.
Comfortable. Complacent. But with this nagging feeling that this comfort and complacency was not a good thing.
But praise the Lord for other believers and how the Lord uses them to spur us on.
I was at work a few days ago and I received a message from a coworker who wanted my thoughts on a Bible verse. I went to chat with her about it….and I walked away incredibly encouraged.
She’s a new believer. She didn’t grow up in a Christian home. She wasn’t “used to” the things of Christ.
As she talked, she explained she didn’t understand so much of God’s Word. She said…”it takes me weeks to go through chapters because I want to understand it.”
She showed me how she’s been picking verses apart on little sticky notes throughout her Bible.
I walked away challenged but so encouraged. I needed to be challenged about my lack of energy when trying to understand God’s Word. And my friend did that for me, whether she meant to or not.
God used her.
The next night, I was talking to my mom and she made a comment about my quiet time. I confessed that my quiet time has been pretty awful lately. And I cringed but I knew she would pray.
I talked with my husband, Forest, and decided to try something new. I decided I would start reading my Bible at night and then read the same chapter the next morning.
I started reading in 1 Corinthians. But I did something different this time, I prayed “Lord, let me have new fresh eyes to see your Word. Let it be new to me again.”
And wow. We just have a sweet King.
“But, as it is written, “What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him”— these things God has revealed to us through the Spirit. For the Spirit searches everything, even the depths of God.”
1 Corinthians 2:9-10 ESV
For the spirit searches everything, EVEN the depths of God.
Amazed. I was amazed. I was in awe. For the first time in a while, I felt like I heard God’s voice.
He wants me to know Him. To really know Him. To KEEP knowing and DISCOVERING Him with the heart of a new believer—So much so that He has given us His Holy Spirit who searches the depths of Him. God wants us to know the depths of Him!
What an incredible Father. He wants to reveal Himself to us. How He loves us. How He meets us in the sweetest of ways.
I hope today that if you are reading this, that this encourages you. I hope you see, afresh, how much God loves you and wants you to walk in relationship with Him.
But I also hope this encourages you to really seek Him, to spend time in His word, to share with others and to ask for new eyes.
Seriously, ask Him for new eyes!
Our Father is patient. Our Father longs to draw us close. HE answers prayers!
Oh Lord, speak, your servant is listening.
— Abi Jaggers McCollough